Realization

Today was the day that made me realize
drugs i dont need, its a lie

god tell me why
did you make life such a struggle
i only got one life
aint a stunt double
troubles;
are right around the corner
im a drug user
but forever i must stay sober
or choose to live life a loner

do drugs to get ride of the pain and sorrow
but after its gone, i feel the same tomorrow
so why not stay sober and write away the pain
drop the heavy load so i dont go insane
to my brain

cause i know if i keep this up, ima hurt everyone around
leaving them in frowns
or get buried underground

but maybe the only thing that makes me want to stay alive
keep my head up to survive
would be the love of my life;
my wife

cause without her, i would be nothing
not anything, not even something

but theres someone else i gotta thank
because of my sister, i realized so much today
more things to realize in just a single day

i gotta thank god for giving me people that cares
my lady, my sister, the homies; my friends
so i gotta keep trying til i put this drug addiction to an end

Mrs. LANG

man do i love this girl so much
love i got for her, more than a bunch
i wont even eat
so she can be my lunch

if im the pancake
i would be incomplete without my honey
she makes my day sunny
got my heart jumping and hopping like a bunny
kinda funny

mrs. L-A-N-G?
Is that who she wants to be?
well signs point to it cause now shes with me

how many fella could find something this special
beautiful, no fake facial
shes almost like my spiritual; partner
the other half that i never had
whoops my bad
i meant ill never ever have

she gives me all i need to survive
stay live
dont want a bajillion wives
i just want one my whole entire life
just one to be my wife

so lets not end this everlasting love
ir ill die and fly away like a dove
so as long as i have you forever
ill be fine
dont ever leave me
forever she'll be mine

A Voice In My Head

she got him dis he could never stop
writing he must not drop
feeling the beat
rapping to hip hop

hes lost; poor little soul
cant find his way out so he goes spark a bowl...
cold

clue in his own little world
thats why he loves the world he shares with his gurl
the one he loves most
still will protect her even if he's a ghost

but it sucks when he's the one that makes her sad
makes her mad
feeling so bad
so he look for drugs
when all he fckn needs are hugs

he's scar, ruin mentally
when all he wants to do is live this world happily
but right now he's not even on the ground
he's more like floating in space flipping around
seeing things like clown

now he knows shes gnna get mad and think he's stupid
dont blame him, go kill cupid
kuz cupid shot him with an arrow with her name
her emotions are the same
their feelings for each other are very strong
feels better than toking a bong
thats why he sat here and decided to write her a song
didnt really care if it wuz gonna be short or long

he just wanted to tell her exactly how his heart feels
its the real deal
kuz til death do em part
he will always love her
nd the only thing going thru his head
is loving her forever

Hurt

I'm hurt, I feel torn inside
No lie

It stings like a burn
Plus it'll leave a scar
Run me over with a car

How can I not treat the most greatest girl rite
I'm such a fool
who lies and always put up a fite

im a straight dumbass
thats all ill ever be
nuthin but dirt is what everybody sees in me

so oh well, im dirt & im useless
plus im mindless
practically heartless;
souless

After this girl, I'm never going to love another
Because she was the only girl
to be my babies mother

tears that fall from your eyes stings so bad
it makes my day like shit
when im the one that made you mad;
sad

i feel like the biggest jerk when i ruin your day
it hurts to see you put up through this
and still fucken stay

You deserve better
you really do
cause each day
i get up and i just cant believe ur mine
ur just so beautiful and just so fine
to me, ur above lil number nine

so i guess its me
im not treating you right
when youre the most prettiest
plus with a smile so bright
so i dont think im gonna be able
to sleep tonight

i wanna prove to you i can treat you right
but first, its my drug addiction i gotta fight
i picture us somewhere beautiful and nice
hot summer day eating fruit shaved ice
like the end of a fairytale,
happily ever after
always and forever

I'm The One You Picked

Please baby no more tears
I should be wiping away your fears
but the biggest fear you have is near,
and its me.

jeez, im such a dick.
I should be cherishing this moment
cause i was the one you picked.
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dam baby
today made me realize
u do deserve more then my kid actions
cause you honestly dont care about your reputation
nd could care less bout that nd care more bout me
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fo now on its stephanie phan
the only person dat'll run thru my mind
since it took me this long to realize it
then dam, im fckn blind
promise from now on,
you and i will shine

Every Bit

baby ur the best
that i must confess
no girl i gave my heart to
no girl i would have ever thought i could call my boo
its true
i love you with every bit of my heart

Hush Little Baby

Hush lil baby dont you cry

im gonna tell the truth, aint no lie
im always gonna be here to keep u in my arms
nd promise to never let you get harm
will always love you til the day i die
now could you promise me not to cry?