Stay Sweet, Don't Turn Sour

sitting here
with a little fear
what if one day i lose you to another
what if that one day, we wont be together
the thought of watching you leave my side
hurts really bad
what you get it right?
everybody wants you and have the ability to take u away
ill have you today
but what about tomorrow
who knows, ill probably suffer with sorrow
i fell hard for you
harder with every hour
would you stay this sweet and turn sour ?
i hope not
youre all i got
youre like my life line
my hearts in your hand
to be your only man
& without your love, id be dead
yup thats what i said
without your love, death will be knockin on my door
i really hope i dont see that day you wont love me anymore

Forever In My Life

Everyday i wake up and thank god im not dead
laying in my bed...
not much running thru my mind
just one main thing;
i know a girl like you, i wont find
& if i didnt make you mine then id be blind
so its a good thing i made the right choice to make you mine
sticking together
no matter...
whether its the end of time
or the end of my life
im always going to love you til the day i die
never will i make you cry
loving you forever;
its the truth, no lie
soon you'll get me on my knees to make you my wife
and we'll live happily ever after
forever you'll be in my life :)

Stephanie Phan

honestly i could never love any girl the way i love you
believe me, its true
sticking to you like super glue
kinda corny
im not horny
just feeling lovely
guess im in love with stephanie phan
shows you ima true man
all the love to show you i can
fighting for your love i will
all the hole in my heart you have filled
only lady who understands how i feel
its the real deal
i can see my future with the love of my life
someday id like to make you my wife
forever and ever, you and i will be together
just like a fairytale
we'll live happily ever after

Trust is a Must

Trust is a must
A hard challenge I will bust
Fighting for you is what I'll always do
Guess thats what happens when youre my boo
so believe me on this one
i wont leave you blue
believe me baby
every single word is true

Motivation & Inspiration

Come on baby, no more tear
dont let this be your biggest fear
just cause my deadline is near
smile wont you dear

how can i succeed when youre my only motivation
last inspiration
no more sad emotion

when i see you sad like this it makes me want drugs
im upset cause im not there for you to cry on
nor to give you a hug

just listen to me, i promise ima make it
til the last second ima go fckn try
and if i dont make it, fuck that thought
i rather die .

so smile please baby
if you keep crying and frowning;
ill never make it past this
your smile and laughters;
are my only motivation to keep trying.

How I'm Feeling

its horrible ...
im drowning in my own tears
losing her is practically my biggest fear
june 18 is fucken near

if i cant stay sober
forever ima be a loner
cause a promise is a promise
and that has to be done is going to have to be done
no more loving someone
no more having fun

cause tonight i got too much on my mind
why the fuck was i so fckn blind ?

what would i do without my wife
cause to me, without her theres no meaning of life
so when that day comes and i fckn fail...
do your part, just leave me and bail
dont worry, ill be fine cause my soul will set sail

pretty much after that day, there will be no kevin
cause without you, might as well die
take the escalator to heaven

Realization

Today was the day that made me realize
drugs i dont need, its a lie

god tell me why
did you make life such a struggle
i only got one life
aint a stunt double
troubles;
are right around the corner
im a drug user
but forever i must stay sober
or choose to live life a loner

do drugs to get ride of the pain and sorrow
but after its gone, i feel the same tomorrow
so why not stay sober and write away the pain
drop the heavy load so i dont go insane
to my brain

cause i know if i keep this up, ima hurt everyone around
leaving them in frowns
or get buried underground

but maybe the only thing that makes me want to stay alive
keep my head up to survive
would be the love of my life;
my wife

cause without her, i would be nothing
not anything, not even something

but theres someone else i gotta thank
because of my sister, i realized so much today
more things to realize in just a single day

i gotta thank god for giving me people that cares
my lady, my sister, the homies; my friends
so i gotta keep trying til i put this drug addiction to an end

Mrs. LANG

man do i love this girl so much
love i got for her, more than a bunch
i wont even eat
so she can be my lunch

if im the pancake
i would be incomplete without my honey
she makes my day sunny
got my heart jumping and hopping like a bunny
kinda funny

mrs. L-A-N-G?
Is that who she wants to be?
well signs point to it cause now shes with me

how many fella could find something this special
beautiful, no fake facial
shes almost like my spiritual; partner
the other half that i never had
whoops my bad
i meant ill never ever have

she gives me all i need to survive
stay live
dont want a bajillion wives
i just want one my whole entire life
just one to be my wife

so lets not end this everlasting love
ir ill die and fly away like a dove
so as long as i have you forever
ill be fine
dont ever leave me
forever she'll be mine

A Voice In My Head

she got him dis he could never stop
writing he must not drop
feeling the beat
rapping to hip hop

hes lost; poor little soul
cant find his way out so he goes spark a bowl...
cold

clue in his own little world
thats why he loves the world he shares with his gurl
the one he loves most
still will protect her even if he's a ghost

but it sucks when he's the one that makes her sad
makes her mad
feeling so bad
so he look for drugs
when all he fckn needs are hugs

he's scar, ruin mentally
when all he wants to do is live this world happily
but right now he's not even on the ground
he's more like floating in space flipping around
seeing things like clown

now he knows shes gnna get mad and think he's stupid
dont blame him, go kill cupid
kuz cupid shot him with an arrow with her name
her emotions are the same
their feelings for each other are very strong
feels better than toking a bong
thats why he sat here and decided to write her a song
didnt really care if it wuz gonna be short or long

he just wanted to tell her exactly how his heart feels
its the real deal
kuz til death do em part
he will always love her
nd the only thing going thru his head
is loving her forever

Hurt

I'm hurt, I feel torn inside
No lie

It stings like a burn
Plus it'll leave a scar
Run me over with a car

How can I not treat the most greatest girl rite
I'm such a fool
who lies and always put up a fite

im a straight dumbass
thats all ill ever be
nuthin but dirt is what everybody sees in me

so oh well, im dirt & im useless
plus im mindless
practically heartless;
souless

After this girl, I'm never going to love another
Because she was the only girl
to be my babies mother

tears that fall from your eyes stings so bad
it makes my day like shit
when im the one that made you mad;
sad

i feel like the biggest jerk when i ruin your day
it hurts to see you put up through this
and still fucken stay

You deserve better
you really do
cause each day
i get up and i just cant believe ur mine
ur just so beautiful and just so fine
to me, ur above lil number nine

so i guess its me
im not treating you right
when youre the most prettiest
plus with a smile so bright
so i dont think im gonna be able
to sleep tonight

i wanna prove to you i can treat you right
but first, its my drug addiction i gotta fight
i picture us somewhere beautiful and nice
hot summer day eating fruit shaved ice
like the end of a fairytale,
happily ever after
always and forever

I'm The One You Picked

Please baby no more tears
I should be wiping away your fears
but the biggest fear you have is near,
and its me.

jeez, im such a dick.
I should be cherishing this moment
cause i was the one you picked.
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dam baby
today made me realize
u do deserve more then my kid actions
cause you honestly dont care about your reputation
nd could care less bout that nd care more bout me
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fo now on its stephanie phan
the only person dat'll run thru my mind
since it took me this long to realize it
then dam, im fckn blind
promise from now on,
you and i will shine

Every Bit

baby ur the best
that i must confess
no girl i gave my heart to
no girl i would have ever thought i could call my boo
its true
i love you with every bit of my heart

Hush Little Baby

Hush lil baby dont you cry

im gonna tell the truth, aint no lie
im always gonna be here to keep u in my arms
nd promise to never let you get harm
will always love you til the day i die
now could you promise me not to cry?

I'm Saying " IF "

If...I'm saying if.

But if we broke up & wur no longer together
believe me, im never gonna love another

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Why?

because youre closer to me
as close as my brother
maybe closer

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to me you're like a mutha fckn goddess
ur more than a dime
can't be too less, leave me with no stress

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Plus your smile.
U know what I can do
You would understand if you stepped into my shoe
& understand that im nuthin without you boo

so this relationship will never be demolished
having you forever ...
... is my only wish

Getting On My Knees

Killing myself slowly
doesnt sound so boldly
but til my last breath,
ima love you only
my feelings for you are hella hella strong
hit the bong, write you a song
living life to the fullest very very long
with my baby, sweetest of sweet ladies
ur love drives me crazy
never act shady
so babe remain the love of my life
get on my knees and make you my wife

Sixteen Years

My whole 16 years of life
never thot id find my wife
& when im with you, it feels so right
i wanna kick it with you day and night

ive never been so sprung
i want you to be my new drug,
knowing u wont trash my lung

promise ima love you forever
anything for you ill never say never
kuz how im feeling is,
i want this forever =)

No Bully

everyone isnt perfect, nor has a perfect life
thats why you got to be strong and go through the strife
it might be stupid, it might be painful
buht baby, that does not make you blameful
right now they're too blinded to see
that you guys need all the love, and not the bully
but soon they will have to be
the family you have always wanted, youll see
but for now you need to smile
and not add more to the pile
of hurt that you and your brothers have inside
that would just be the downside
there should be no tears in your eyes
because then id do the same likewise
you can show your brother the love he needs
and not show him all the misleads
youre the best anyone could ask for
one that wont ignore
the problems people struggle through
youd be there to help them too
a smile on people's face will show
so pretend this happened a while ago
now all you gotta do is smile too

for everyone else please, my babyboo.

A Promise 'Til The End

promise; til the end of life
ima make you my wife
til the day i die
youre my soulmate, thats why
so let me caress you in my open arm
where i know you would never be harmed
could never understand what love meant til i found you

forever til i die, you would always remain my booo

I'll Be Your Soldier

im thinkin bout my wifey
how she touch me nicely
feeling warmth when i hold her
fo you ill be your soldier
loving you always
thinking bout chu all day
we started out a week being frends
now together til duh end forever til i die
kuz you the best, thats why

Not Walking Solo

i wouldnt want to walk this earth solo
wouldnt know where to go
what to do
if i didnt have my boo
id go insane
lok to the brain
cause im krazy, krazy bout you
from now on, ima stick to you like glue
you wanna see real love
walk in my shoe
maybe you would know how to love a girl
cause i got a clue